This week has flown by but it has certainly been a mixed bag of highs and lows.
On the one hand I feel really proud of getting back into a good fitness and eating routine. But on the other hand I feel like I am failing as a mother and totally overwhelmed with how to handle my demanding 2.5 year old son. I think I cried most days.
Oh and I have had to buy yet another car seat as our current one has a fault! The car seat drama continues…
I have really achieved my goal of running and walking more this week. Ethan goes to nursery during the week which now means I have time again and no excuses. I haven’t been out running since the summer when I got one of my worst migraines ever and it really put me off.
I knew it was going to be hard on my legs but this is what I managed to do:
Monday: 30 min walk, 4.5km run, 20 min walk
Tuesday: 50 min walk, 20 min walk
Wednesday: 4.5km run, 20 min walk
Thursday: 1 hour walk
Friday: 4.5km run, 20 min walk
Saturday: 1 hour family walk
What I will say is that if you hate running, walking can be just as good! I really tried to increase the pace of my walks this week and I definitely felt it! Oli enjoyed it too!
I love Herbalife products and whenever I need to strip back on eating junk (like after Christmas) I follow their programme. I don’t do it strictly for long periods of time but it has helped me to refocus this week. Simply its a meal replacement protein shake for breakfast and lunch followed by a balanced dinner and healthy snacks.
Ethan doesn’t usually have evening meals with us as he’s asleep by 7pm and we like to eat a little later. I batch cook and freeze meals for him so that I always have something healthy available that’s easy to reheat. If you need some evening meal inspiration this is what Mr W and I had this week:
Monday: Salmon fillet, stirfry veg and noodles – my own made up recipe with a little soy, fish sauce, coriander, ginger, garlic, chilli and lime juice added for flavor.
Tuesday: Vegetarian pesto pasta – my own made up recipe with a jar of good quality pesto, stir fried red onion & mushroom, Parmesan and a few pine nuts.
Wednesday: Cheese & bacon omelette – I do my weekly food shop on a Thursday so the Wednesday meal is not lucky enough to have loads of fresh ingredients!
Thursday: Jamie’s 5 ingredients recipe – my favourite book at the moment – Italian Seared Beef (pine nuts, rump steak, pesto, rocket, Parmesan) – we also had some toasted pita breads with this meal.
Friday: We shared an M&S pizza and made a huge salad to go with it. Kinda naughty but not that bad!
Saturday: Jamie’s 5 ingredients recipe – Flaky Pastry Pesto Chicken (puff pastry, chicken breasts, pesto, tomatoes, green beans).
Sunday: Pork steaks, slimming world roast potatoes & vegetables.
I am really trying to watch my potions again. So instead of denying myself all the good stuff, I am making sure I have a little less and moving a lot more. I also made a real point of drinking more water which mean a lot of extra toilet stops!
Lots of Tears
It’s been quite an emotional week for me and before I talk more about this I am already worrying that it’s going to come across like I am moaning! And I really don’t want that to be the case at all. But I want to be honest.
I always find January a hard time of the year. And this year in Jersey it seems particularly hard. The wind, rain and cold has been relentless the past few weeks and it’s been getting to me. We have had a day or 2 of sunshine and I am very grateful for that! Despite the weather I am proud of how much time I have spent outside this week.
A very sunny afternoon on Wednesday…
I am really missing my Dad. It’s been almost a year since I last saw him which is way too long. Ethan has changed so much in that time and it makes me so sad to think he is missing out. We do FaceTime regularly but its not the same. Thankfully he is coming for a short visit in February and I cannot wait!
I love being a Mom, I really do. But I have felt like a failure almost everyday this week. My biggest struggle has been with the morning and evening routine. Thankfully Mr W has been around a lot of the time to help out but it still just seems so hard.
It seems so silly talking about it now but in the moment it all just gets on top of me. At the beginning of the week we had an idea to change the routine slightly to see if that would make the process in the morning easier. So what we used to do was get up, do a quick nappy change then go through for breakfast before teeth and getting dressed. Isn’t that what most people do?
So what we then tried doing was to get Ethan dressed as soon as he woke up, then go through for breakfast, then teeth before leaving. This confused him and seemed to work for the first 2 days. But by day 3 he was screaming and saying no, no, no before I had even got him out his cot! I can feel myself getting so stressed and almost holding my breath to get through the process as quickly as possible. It shouldn’t be this hard should it?
This picture was taken on Wednesday evening. We were playing games and having a lot of fun but not much getting dressed was happening!
Nappy changes have been a struggle for as long as I can remember. I always hoped it would just be one of those phases that passed…it’s been a bloody long phase! I have tried toys, books, books that sing, books that flap, silly games, singing songs, changing him on the unit, changing him on the floor, changing him standing up, swapping to pull ups…you name it, I’ve tried it.
This might all seem so silly to you but it really worries me. What am I doing so wrong? Why are these simple tasks just so hard when I am trying everything I know to make them fun and enjoyable? I really can’t bare the thought of fighting with Ethan to get though every morning and evening routine for the foreseeable future.
I have been in a couple of car accidents so have been pretty obsessed with having THE BEST car seat possible for Ethan from the start. I have spent hours and hours on the internet doing research.
He started in a MaxiCosi pebble (with an ISOFIX base) but when he grew out of that we bought a Nuna Rebl. It seemed to tick every box and was i-Size compliant. After all my research I was adamant I wanted him to be rear facing for as long as possible.
The Nuna Rebl cost an absolute fortune at nearly £500 but that didn’t matter – according to my research it was the best and we bought it.
Some time later we had a little poo explosion in the car…and I did a quick google to check on the washing instructions. You can imagine my horror when I came across this Which? article rating the Nuna Rebl as a “Don’t Buy”. I promptly returned the car seat and received a refund.
The next car seat I purchased was the BeSafe iZi Kid X2 which I have been really happy with. But over the past few months it has become harder and harder to tighten the straps as they seem to have twisted internally. I contacted BeSafe and their customer service has been fantastic. Even though the retailer I originally purchased the seat from no longer exists, they are going to collect and repair my seat free of charge!
So while that all happens I have purchased another seat! Gosh you must think I am mad! We wanted to buy a second card seat anyway to take with us when we travel, as the BeSafe with its ISOFIX base is far too heavy to lug to an airport. So I have now bought the Joie Elevate to use for travelling and whilst my BeSafe is being repaired. It arrives soon so I will let you know what I think next week!
Hopefully the BeSafe seat will be returned soon and my car seat drama will be over…I do feel like I’ve had a bit of bad luck with it all!
Ethan is really getting to grips with his new Cruzee bike!
I hope you are all having a lovely Sunday whatever you may be up to. I’m hoping to get down to the beach later for a family walk.
See you just now!